mid october

I can't believe it's almost the middle of the month, and things are moving so fast.  All the details will come later, but I feel like I am stuck in a tornado and can't get out.  My foot is not yet healed.  I had to pass on physical therapy because of the cost.  My medical bills have drained us both emotionally and physically, and we haven't even gotten the bills for my foot accident and brain surgery is in two weeks..... hope they take payments, because I would hate for them to reposess my brain, not that it would matter much.  I think I am going to miss the Havest games with Ian this year which I am totally bummed about, but sacrifices have to come somewhere.  I am sure he will have fun with Auntie or nana or Daddy, whomever has him.  We are gonna have a swap meet and do a little declutter, although I don't thnk it will be done before surgery, but all the proceeds will go towards are medical bills.
I am on the craziest diet, apparently my body doesn't like food, or doesn't like digesting it.  I am allergic or sensitive to... are you ready, I will just give you the catagories not the whole list...Gluten (wheat), Soy, Dairy, Shellfish, pork, and sugar ( I have a extreme amount of yeast in my system, hence the ugly toenails that never see the light of day.)  and lettuce... yes, lettuce.  So here I thought I was a healthy eater, but I was really not for my spcific needs.  And I have chicken, turkey, eggs, yogurt, a couple fruits, a few veggies, but to keep my kidney disease in check, I need to keep my proteins down.  OH, and I can't have tap water... but ours is so uber filtered and well water that it doen't have all the chemicals in it, so I think I am safe there.


So I am starting to get a little worried about surgery.  the first one is a trial to see if I am even I candidate for a shunt, and then if that proves the theory correctly then I have major surgery to put in a shunt that will empty out into my belly (one more thing for me to figure out how to digest)

I have already been scoped down my esophagus and they said it looked healthy, but that I may have a prolasped valve causing me not to be able to keep anything down (this is nothing new, this has been going on since I was a teen).  So I take a little pill to relax the mucsles, but now they think it's relaxing my colonic muscles as well.... I told the doc can we just work on one end at a time?  I need a small hole patched in my nasal cavity from having my nose broken twice in the same spot, it chipped a piece of bone out and so now if I get a sinus infection I have a larger risk of another ear infection and the inner and outter ear are both scarred from multiple infections.  I hope this simple procedure is covered my insurance!  Maybe I will ask McSteamy to do it!

October 20th is our new meeting for Ian.  They will be dicussing moving him in to the first grade class.  I pray the Lord for guidance on this one, because as a mother I want to see him move up, but I have to trust in the school system to let me know if he is ready.

The year is almost up.  A poor christmas for us this year, but as long as we are all safe,warm, and healthy, who could want anything more at this point!

a song that means something to me right now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NG2zyeVRcbs

well, Sept ALMOST escaped me

So.... I thought that we would make it through September without any incidents. But, nope.... Sept 29th I was walking up one of the stairs from our sunken livingroom into our dining room and was heading toward the kitchen, because I was baking goodies for the church open house. As I was goin up the step, I just stepped with my toes and the pad of my foot, and I heard a pop and down I went. Thank goodness it was on the carpet. But I layed there crying and screaming uncontrolably, and so Dale wasn't taking any chances and called the ambulance. Didi came down and took care of Ian, while I sat and sat and sat, waiting for xrays. When we got there, there was only one other kid ahead of us and he had all of his tests and was waiting to be discharged. When I finally got back to xray the radiologist admitted they forgot about me. I said that is the last time that will happen. I have such bad experiences with AG Hospital. Yet I have heard others say it has gotten so much better. So the diagnosis is that I tore the mucsle and the ligament holding my ankle bone together. On top of my piggies looking like wittle saugages, my ankle is all jacked up and looks like it's gonna take some time to heal. I am thinking God has a plan and it must be for me to lay back and take in his word a little. Bethany had an excellent idea and that was to watch the whole beth moore series while I laid up. I think I will save that for when my mom is here to help me out. She would really enjoy that too. So I will be laid up for the next 3-5 weeks depending on how my body depends to heal. We are going to Long Beach the 23rd and 24th for a friends wedding, can't forget my camera... those candid pics are the best! and then I am trying to get my first of two brain surgeries and I hope to be home by the 30th unless they plan on doing the shunt right after the first surgery. Only Dr. Bob Shafa can tell us that, and I pray that God is leading him in His direction

So please be patient with me, with my family. If you see new faces at our house, it's because Didi has hired someone to help us out. So Dale doesn't have such a chore to take on when he gets home. Ian is acting out a bit and is testing anyone he can. This was his first week he didn't get his donut.... so mommy didn't get holes either.... oh well, not supposed to have them. Oh, that brings up a whole other issue....

My new PCP did a food sensitivity/allergy test on me and my diest has been severely restricted for at least 6 months.

NO dairy (casein)

No Soy

No Wheat

No Sugars

No Shellfish (I don't like seafood)

No Caffeine (unless I am plagued by a headache)

No artificial sweetners/ msg/stevia

I think you get the point. So don't get offfended if I don't eat something you offer me, I am really trying to clean out my gut... although I do break the rules sometimes!

We are lookng forward to brain surgery this month. It's been over 3 months since all this started. I won't get my vision back, but hopefully I won't lose anymore. I may still get headaches, especially with weather change or climate change, but my everyday lifestyle should improve.... no it WILL improve! I have so much faith in God. Yes we will be broke for years to come, but God will prevail. God will provide. Any extra prayers are welcome. any extra goodies won't be turned away. Dale can't have nuts and Ian can't have Dairy. And don't wory about me.. I am just too hard to cook for. I will take your prayers and hold them close to my heart. What I really would like is for someone to come and paint my toenails... don't ask me why, but I always like to have pretty toes when I go into the hospital. Thank you everyone for eveything. God Bless you. and Much love to you all.